To all my invisible companions
Hello friends and foes-it's someone you don't know. It's someone you probably wouldn't eat dinner with, either. I sit with ideas and evaluations, in flutter-internally, typing with explicit urgency. A far-extended-reach and grab desperation, keeps me plugging and gyrating all over my defeated keyboard as I pray for my basic needs of family structure and simple unity.
My purpose lies far away from wanting to point the dark finger at anyone, or play the blame game, in any dimension. Instead, I want to open up the lines of communication with my loved ones, to more than anything, here, create a surplus of positive coexistence. I'm in my bedroom alone, both in my thoughts and physicality. I'm emotionally confined in my shadowless box, and although my parents are within 20 feet of me, they are (especially my father) yet as far as the core of Neptune. Yes, distance, and the mass of things left unsaid, and misunderstood sepearate us. We are the unknowing benefactors of our own mistranslations.
So, it's 6:17 standard Eastern time, and here I am, snuffed by my own gasping exhaustion. The sun leans in my windows and simultaneously slaps the polygonal angles of my 2-dimensional presence. I am hunched further over my own weight, and bent under my own confinements more tightly than a continent submerged by an earthquake.
Do you have any questions? I do, but only time can answer them. Time and the refusal of darkness. I will embrace all the light that surrounds me, and permeate my best warrior spirit. I just wish I could eat supper with my family, more often.
love and vitality to all those who seek it,
and to all of you-my invisible companions,
JJK